I Can Still Feel You

Still...out of habit.....4 years later... I subconsciously..... close my eyes and hold my womb as though you have never left from me....when I saw this photo I bursted out crying because I didn’t realize I still do this... but the reality is I do...I ask myself often will the pain hurt less but it never really does...I mourn you, I think of you, I remember you, I cherish you, I love you. 4 years later I have lost you and your other two siblings and it cuts deep, it effects me in ways that very few people will EVER understand. If I’m extremely honest, I truly don’t believe I have never really been the same person since the day you left from me. The silver lining is that I am finally getting help now, I should of did it along time ago but I was afraid that if I did then that would just mean I was trying to erase the memory of you and I didn’t want that. As of late I don’t really know what my future holds but what I do know is that I will always continue to hold onto you. I love you. Happy birthday👼🏾 Samuel